Let me ask you this ‘blog followers’….
How many of you out there second the idea that working in Corporate America is slow, painful, and achingly unfulfilling death?
Once again, a little over a year later, I seem to be coming full circle all over again. Okay, not full circle but half circle. I’m certainly not in the same place as I was a year ago but in terms of my career, I’m still right where I started.
I just got laid off for a 3rd time in 2 years.
Ugh.
Wait, I’ll say it again. UGH!
Ok. I feel better now.
Almost.
This last year has been a year of hard lessons but necessary lessons. Last spring when I was unemployed, I went from depressed, to angry, to inspired (thank you Kris Carr), meditative, active, conscious. Then I got a job at a law firm and while I welcomed the paycheck, it wasn’t what I needed. Healthy habits started to fall away in favor of long hours, longer commutes, and moving my residence AGAIN.
I remember distinctly sitting on the front porch of my mother’s house last summer saying to her, ‘I honestly just want a job that I don’t have to worry about. I want to go to work and come home and let it all go. I want to be comfortable’. (My law firm job was a HUGE undertaking. I was working on actual cases and as an art school grad; it was completely stressing me out and decidedly not my line of work!)
And literally, a week or so later, this cushy corporate job fell into my lap. Happy Visualization! I got clear about my objective and the universe provided. Finally things were coming around. Sure, it wasn’t paying me enough but I wasn’t stressing anymore and that’s what I said I wanted. (The universe is plentiful. You just have to get clear about your wants and needs. It’s just waiting for you to make a decision).
Here’s another thing I’d been doing for months. In my down time, I started to feel like maybe it was time to find a partner. To learn some relationship lessons. To stop doing this all on my own like I’d been doing for so many years.
This job brought me both comfort, less stress, and a relationship (where I managed and am managing to learn a whole lot about what it takes to care about someone and yourself and honor someone with all their differences while still honoring yourself – all of this in a very short span of time. Be careful what you wish for, people! LOL).
So, having gotten everything I asked for this past year, I’m still left with a failing career path.
It’s time to wake up!
I’m one of those silly people who kind of want it all but usually am quite happy to sit back and wait for the all to arrive happily at my doorstep wearing a nice little bow and a sign that says, “Here I am. Unwrap slowly but confidently for Supreme Happiness and Fulfillment.”
There are only some things we can control as human beings. For instance, I can’t control whether or not someone chooses to be with me forever. Or, less dramatically, whether someone is faithful to me.
I can’t control the economy. It’s a dog eat dog world out there right now. Lots of people are in the same boat I am. Some with kids. So, really…I’m lucky.
I can’t control the weather.
I can’t control gas prices.
I can’t control the interest rate on my credit cards!
I can’t control the hiring freeze that is at many companies right now.
So – what’s left for me to do? What are some things that I can control?
This has gotten me thinking.
I can control the way I feel. Namely, I can control what I put in my body. How I care for my body. How I treat myself. Which in turn, will help me react to those things I can’t control, to power through on my own train, undeterred. It will help with my mood, my demeanor, my life force. Everything. That I can control.
I can control how I treat people; how I choose to love, to honor. Am I being honest? Am I being merciful? Am I giving my all?
I can control how I treat myself? Am I stuck in a situation that is taking more than it’s giving? Am I butting my head against the same walls? If so, free yourself. Move forward. It’s a gift to yourself. Staying stuck is a NIGHTMARE! And it all going to catch up with you sooner or later.
Am I having enough fun? Wait…what?! Fun?? In this economy? Yup. I said it. Fun. Let’s face it people. You need it. People don’t laugh enough. They don’t get goofy. They don’t dance. Everything is so DARN SERIOUS all the time. Enough already. I’m here to live big. I want to feel things. I want to poke fun at it all. Times are tough right now. Why not hop on the crazy train and giggle about how ridiculous it all is??
It’s all about Balance.
Have you ever noticed that when you’re so focused on one or two aspects of your life to the exclusion of everything else that makes you you, that is usually the time when life kind of snowballs. Bad luck comes out of nowhere. You get sick. You lose money left and right. You lose love or (worse) don’t find it at all.
I’m guilty of it too. I get lost in things all the time. Focused. Not focused enough about others. I put my own needs aside more often than I should.
Well kids – it’s 2009. The year of change! We have a new, inspired President in the White House. We are building from the basement up! Why can’t we do the same for ourselves, right?
I need a plan. And let me tell you, unless I’m planning a travel itinerary, I could really do without a plan in my life. I’m not great at them. I’m much more laid back than that. I’m a ‘sit back and relax’ kind of person. To overplan my life seems like a travesty to be honest. But they are necessary. They are vital to making changes that we all need to make to have the happy lives we dream about when we believe no one is looking.
So, yes, I need a plan.
And it might sound a little like this:
Take care of myself.
Have more fun.
Love my partner and family and friends with everything I have as often as I can.
Think long and hard about what I have to offer the world, what makes me geared up and ready to spend hours trying to accomplish it, what inspires me and do MUCH MORE OF THAT.
Get outside and give big ole Mother Earth many more kisses than I have been lately.
That’s the outline. Next comes details. Do I go back to school? Do I focus on trying to sell my book exclusively?
Visualize. Realize. It’ll come to me.
Life is good. It’s easy to forget. We need to nourish ourselves. Take some chances. And learn to speak up.
I’m back.
I can feel it.
I’m learning balance and for the first time ever, I think maybe I really can have it all.
Let’s get to work, people!!
How many of you out there second the idea that working in Corporate America is slow, painful, and achingly unfulfilling death?
Once again, a little over a year later, I seem to be coming full circle all over again. Okay, not full circle but half circle. I’m certainly not in the same place as I was a year ago but in terms of my career, I’m still right where I started.
I just got laid off for a 3rd time in 2 years.
Ugh.
Wait, I’ll say it again. UGH!
Ok. I feel better now.
Almost.
This last year has been a year of hard lessons but necessary lessons. Last spring when I was unemployed, I went from depressed, to angry, to inspired (thank you Kris Carr), meditative, active, conscious. Then I got a job at a law firm and while I welcomed the paycheck, it wasn’t what I needed. Healthy habits started to fall away in favor of long hours, longer commutes, and moving my residence AGAIN.
I remember distinctly sitting on the front porch of my mother’s house last summer saying to her, ‘I honestly just want a job that I don’t have to worry about. I want to go to work and come home and let it all go. I want to be comfortable’. (My law firm job was a HUGE undertaking. I was working on actual cases and as an art school grad; it was completely stressing me out and decidedly not my line of work!)
And literally, a week or so later, this cushy corporate job fell into my lap. Happy Visualization! I got clear about my objective and the universe provided. Finally things were coming around. Sure, it wasn’t paying me enough but I wasn’t stressing anymore and that’s what I said I wanted. (The universe is plentiful. You just have to get clear about your wants and needs. It’s just waiting for you to make a decision).
Here’s another thing I’d been doing for months. In my down time, I started to feel like maybe it was time to find a partner. To learn some relationship lessons. To stop doing this all on my own like I’d been doing for so many years.
This job brought me both comfort, less stress, and a relationship (where I managed and am managing to learn a whole lot about what it takes to care about someone and yourself and honor someone with all their differences while still honoring yourself – all of this in a very short span of time. Be careful what you wish for, people! LOL).
So, having gotten everything I asked for this past year, I’m still left with a failing career path.
It’s time to wake up!
I’m one of those silly people who kind of want it all but usually am quite happy to sit back and wait for the all to arrive happily at my doorstep wearing a nice little bow and a sign that says, “Here I am. Unwrap slowly but confidently for Supreme Happiness and Fulfillment.”
There are only some things we can control as human beings. For instance, I can’t control whether or not someone chooses to be with me forever. Or, less dramatically, whether someone is faithful to me.
I can’t control the economy. It’s a dog eat dog world out there right now. Lots of people are in the same boat I am. Some with kids. So, really…I’m lucky.
I can’t control the weather.
I can’t control gas prices.
I can’t control the interest rate on my credit cards!
I can’t control the hiring freeze that is at many companies right now.
So – what’s left for me to do? What are some things that I can control?
This has gotten me thinking.
I can control the way I feel. Namely, I can control what I put in my body. How I care for my body. How I treat myself. Which in turn, will help me react to those things I can’t control, to power through on my own train, undeterred. It will help with my mood, my demeanor, my life force. Everything. That I can control.
I can control how I treat people; how I choose to love, to honor. Am I being honest? Am I being merciful? Am I giving my all?
I can control how I treat myself? Am I stuck in a situation that is taking more than it’s giving? Am I butting my head against the same walls? If so, free yourself. Move forward. It’s a gift to yourself. Staying stuck is a NIGHTMARE! And it all going to catch up with you sooner or later.
Am I having enough fun? Wait…what?! Fun?? In this economy? Yup. I said it. Fun. Let’s face it people. You need it. People don’t laugh enough. They don’t get goofy. They don’t dance. Everything is so DARN SERIOUS all the time. Enough already. I’m here to live big. I want to feel things. I want to poke fun at it all. Times are tough right now. Why not hop on the crazy train and giggle about how ridiculous it all is??
It’s all about Balance.
Have you ever noticed that when you’re so focused on one or two aspects of your life to the exclusion of everything else that makes you you, that is usually the time when life kind of snowballs. Bad luck comes out of nowhere. You get sick. You lose money left and right. You lose love or (worse) don’t find it at all.
I’m guilty of it too. I get lost in things all the time. Focused. Not focused enough about others. I put my own needs aside more often than I should.
Well kids – it’s 2009. The year of change! We have a new, inspired President in the White House. We are building from the basement up! Why can’t we do the same for ourselves, right?
I need a plan. And let me tell you, unless I’m planning a travel itinerary, I could really do without a plan in my life. I’m not great at them. I’m much more laid back than that. I’m a ‘sit back and relax’ kind of person. To overplan my life seems like a travesty to be honest. But they are necessary. They are vital to making changes that we all need to make to have the happy lives we dream about when we believe no one is looking.
So, yes, I need a plan.
And it might sound a little like this:
Take care of myself.
Have more fun.
Love my partner and family and friends with everything I have as often as I can.
Think long and hard about what I have to offer the world, what makes me geared up and ready to spend hours trying to accomplish it, what inspires me and do MUCH MORE OF THAT.
Get outside and give big ole Mother Earth many more kisses than I have been lately.
That’s the outline. Next comes details. Do I go back to school? Do I focus on trying to sell my book exclusively?
Visualize. Realize. It’ll come to me.
Life is good. It’s easy to forget. We need to nourish ourselves. Take some chances. And learn to speak up.
I’m back.
I can feel it.
I’m learning balance and for the first time ever, I think maybe I really can have it all.
Let’s get to work, people!!
